"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

I dont really welcome new year by making new resolutions, i wouldnt wait for new year if i ever wanted to make changes about my goals or misery life. But then again, im lost this time...totally clueless and desperately needed some motivation or kick in the ass.

I dont enjoy my work, ive been around with this company for a year half and yet i aint going no where. I do agree that this company will grow and it has some potential BUT not what i wanted to do. Im driftting away from my dream, ive always wanted to do RnD ( Research & Development ). Setting up servers, computer networking, internet, firewall, Linux....these are my cup of tea. Seriosuly, i need some time of my own to sit down and think about it. Being a rock star not a pretty bad idea though, sign me up anyone?

I used to be a man with full of confidence...somehow,somewhere,somewhat i fucking lost it. The way i talk, smile, work...it just aint there, get what i mean. Im not being myself and the fuckiest part is im immune to all these not-being-myself and not-trying-to-make-any-changes lifestyle. I gotta change ! I need to search for the lost i-am-great attitude. Think ill go get some beer and google it.

Whats in store for 2006 ?