"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

Being honest is depending on the situation. If you try hard enough, you will develop a feeling for when to be honest and when not. Find the right level (like with so many things in life). It does not mean to lie, if you consider holding back information as not being honest. I would rather call it wise, street-wise.

It doesn’t work from tomorrow, and it doesn’t prevent you from getting burned, but follow a few points and you’ll see a big difference.
For example:

1) respect yourself more (lack of respect is a key-issue!),
2) avoid envy of others by refusing to answer all questions,
3) stay a good person despite our world trying hard to corrupt you,
4) avoid situations (by becoming more honest) where you are confronted with your old lies, ...

What is the advantage of lying ?
What does it take to be honest ?

You know yourself more than anyone else. i have to be honest with myself before i can be honest with others. if you are not happy dont pretend. if you are happy show it. if you love her and want her to be in your life, tell her so.
It is self-hate. I really really loathe myself because I have an almost unlimited ability to fux up a good thing.

I think I am a loser. I am convinced that I can do it if I just try hard enough. I feel that I must be lazy, or I would get off my ass and achieve. The world does not give space. The world needs a lean, mean fighting machine ready to go to war, and I think I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THAT PERSON. The reality of who I am is foreign to me. This halting, failing, non-performing, lazy, fat is a stranger to me.
I am angry with myself, because I have noone else to blame for my failure. If not me, then who?

But what also happens is I cannot discern truth from fiction… and that leads to many fuxed up situations.. I pull away from people who are the closest and who I usually rely upon when things get their worst. I think I mostly do this as a reverse protection…I dont want them to know what I have done. See they can sense when i have or am going down hill before I do.. and I don’t WANT help at that point… I want to suffer. I want to see just how messed up my life can get, how far down I will fall down into the abyss before I am completely lost… Will I begin hurting myself again?? Will I try suicide??? Will I need hospitalization??? OR can I fight it all?? and NOT need the meds at all… actually be a functioning human being like everyone else??? But that never happens…I always fall.

It can be painful, but it is necessary to really find what you want and need. I know what i wan and im gonna fight hard this time.