"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

Posting has been light this week. It has been a bit busy around here, and it isn’t over yet. But I couldn’t let today go by without a public shout out to myself, happy birthday to me today ( 14 August ).

When I was a kid, my birthday was always the best. Though it was not as elaborate, it was a day set aside special just for me. I can still remember when Mum used to give me money to buy KFC ( yes KFC ) and hold a little party for me and my friends. For some reason, KFC is like a grand thing then, probably because Mum came from a poor family and we don't eat good stuff that often. It really was nothing spectacular but to me at that time, it was the most beautiful moment I ever had. The moment it glistened and shone, just me and my friends and of course the chickens. Mum still practice this even until today, she gave me 50 bucks this morning and said "Son, go buy some KFC for yourself and friends". How sweet ! Even though i am earning my own now but i still take that 50 bucks, i am still her Son no matter how old i am. And best still, she bought me KFC for dinner hahahaha. I love you Mum.

What do i get for this year birthday? I got nothing this year, just a birthday card from Jo - she's the only one who would send me birthday card every year. Probably age is catching up, those presents thingie are no longer a traditional practice among my friends.

What do i wish for this year birthday? Here's the deal - because time hasn't stood still and I'm facing the dawn of yet another decade, I want something special for my birthday. I'm finding myself more and more in a state of depression. It's not because I'm a year older or any of that nonsense. It's just that, in the past there's been a torrential range of emotions associated with experiences surrounding my birthday and last year is certainly no exception. Some of the most incredible feelings of self-worth, friendship, and love have been felt during this time of year as well as some of the darkest moments of utter confusion and hopelessness. Of course, as is the human condition, the darker times come to mind much easier than the happy ones.

So what do I want for my birthday this year? More than anything I want some good times to replace these bad memories. That means being surrounded by light-heartedness, happiness, friendship, respect and good old fashioned debauchery. And hopefully, along with that, a few very close friends to share it with and help me to shake these bad feelings so I can enjoy the good times. Is it too much to ask for? And most of all, i really do wish i could spend some quality time with my love one. We are separated by distant and i hope the gap will become closer one day.

A big shout-out to all RAN players i know in game, especially my guild mates - thanks for all the wishes. Jo, thank you very very much for the card - you are just awesome. Thanks for all who SMSed me, appreciate it and God bless you. Shirley, thanks for the song ;) Brandon & Tommy, i got your SMS - thx bro appreciate that. Ex colleagues at Worldtech, so sweet of you guys to wish me - you guys rox. Huihui, your SMS suprised me ! - You owe me a present now ! My little sister in Taiwan, you siaopoh - love you sis.

Fux i think i am really getting old, its just a fuxing birthday ! why am i making a big fuzz here ?! im off to never never land, tomorrow another working day.