"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

I am tired, I am physically, emotionally and mentally tired. For those of you reading this blog and think I want sympathy, feel free to think so. I am simply using this as a “Dear Diary” session today.

I am tired of people that drain the positive and happy moods that one creates and manages to have. They are like fuxing parasites, unable to make or be happy so they suck up the happiness of others and make it their own.

I am tired of this place, this piece of man made fuckup land in the middle of the world, the idiotic country called Malaysia. I wish I could get the words to explain my hatred, utter hatred towards this place. But I am afraid I can’t. Somebody should do the world a favor and wipe this place off the map. It will not be a loss to the universe.

I am tired of my profession, I find myself sitting here on more than occasion asking myself, why on earth did I waste my time doing this. There was a time in my life that I did know, that I still had a passion for this “calling” as some people would say. I have forgotten, sad as it is, I can not remember why I decided to get into this. I have heard people say that once you have lost compassion with your job it is time to leave, well, I lost compassion about 4 years ago.

I am tired of life, yes, just tired of life in general. Yes I know life is unfair and hard and all the other blah blah. But I am tired, I am tired of trying everything, working like hell to be happy just to have it all taken away from me in one fowl swoop. Why is it that bad things seem to keep happen just when you think things can not get any worse?

I could sleep for a thousand years. Its almost 4.00 AM here. I am tired, really. I should probably be in bed already. Instead, I’ve been sitting here and "Dear-Diary". I only got maybe 3 hours sleep last night and I’m looking at a mere 4 tonight. Assuming I stop typing this soon and go to bed and fall asleep quickly. I’m going to go to bed now and hope that I feel better come the morning.