"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

Feeling lazy today. I have plenty of things I should do, but I'm not doing them yet. I think it's because of the rain. Damn, don't you just loveeeee Sunday.

Dreams are made of little hopes and things you carry with you without even knowing. My dream was crushed - but i have picked up the pieces and have put it in a special place. I am lucky to have such lovely and caring parents who have taken every steps to comfort and support me when I failed. Their support and some good friends optimistic advise gave me a sense of being loved.
There is no better feeling in the world than knowing you are being loved. I truly am and I am very fortunate to have this. I am not alone. When a door closes, a window is opened. That is how i feel now. One opportunity is put on hold, but there are far more opportunities, just waiting for me to use them.

Last week I started a new path in my life, I joined a big local company as an Account Manager. I think this is the biggest step I have done because is a great company to work with and getting good bucks as well. They have incredible assets. This company has massive potential, drive, determination and skills. I now have a spiffy new title and more focused duties. I am gonna try this shit out. If you ask me, I’d say it’s a very good fit. I am energized and excited to get on with the work. It was a pain in the ass when I started my job last week simply because they didn't provide me with a computer ! I couldn't do much and thankfully my brand new HP desktop arrived last 2 days and tomorrow I'm gonna slap everyone's ass on MSN, "hey suxer I'm back !". Ohh fux no, I got an appointment at 9.30am.

There is such a difference between what you want to be and what you really are, sometimes it really scares me. I want to be true to myself, but i find that it is hard to choose between what's good and what is easy. The easy way out sometimes cannot be despised. After one of the best day at work ever, a day that left me dazed at the possibility of it all, I had some drinks with my friend at his condo. His condo is trendy and beautiful, and immaculately clean, like in a commercial, the kind of clean that makes you feel dirty even if you’ve just taken a shower.

I was admiring the design and cleanliness of the house, thinking about my new job, about what exactly I had gotten myself into and how I would be able to pull it off, when suddenly my friend asked me an interesting question. "If shits happen, can you fail and get your ass up again"?". Good question. I failed before, to the deepest of the pit. It took me a while before I turned to face him and nodded slowly. Yes, I thought, I could fail. I'm still gonna get my ass back to the track and play it hard. But then of course, I don't want to fail again this time.

“If you can still get your ass up after falling, then you are a fighter. You gotta continue the game no matter what. You still gonna wake up every morning, jump out of bed, and life is at your feet. If you can do that, you will succeed". For a moment there, I was wondering when am I gonna have the money to buy a condo like that.