"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

I am coming to a great big brick wall in my life. It's now heading towards like 6 years and I can't seem to get back into the swing of things. I am at a loss as to what should I do with my life, knowing this has a domino effect on what I will be and what the future holds for me. I used to be vibrant and enthusiastic about life and now worry that I've made a terrible mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my life. How do I get back on right track and make some great decisions for my future?

I feel there have been so many junctions in my life that parts of my soul might have taken flight. I view almost every situation in my life as a failure. I am also disgusted by what I see as my complete self-centeredness. I also feel that I am guilty of completely overlooking the positive things in my life and focusing on the negatives only. I can remember having a few major episodes of depression in my life. Shits just happen.

Every time when I think I got it this time, it just ain't my turn yet - I am never that lucky.