"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

I am tired and I am sick. Many people have told me that I should be striving to find some balance in life. In general, I think that I do quite well. I actually don't exercise much, I use a lot of computers and I always sleep late. On the other hand, I occasionally work 52 hours a week and skip meals. See, I'm really trying hard to balance it ;)

Well, I have been innocently staying at home after work for the past few days. They have been boring days, truth be told, but I am hating it. I got no where to go, nothing to do except trying to get a good sleep. Which saddens me a great deal since I can't really stick my ass at home. So after those painful days, I started to call up some old friends for some drinks. The friends I spent time with have been awesome, I had loads of conversation, and I felt that activities like this made a difference in someone’s life. A positive difference, and was done because I was so fuxing boring!

I slept really badly the last few days, thanks to Euro 2008. That makes me grumpy as hell and accident prone. I managed to plant my knee against a fuxing desk so hard today that I ended up feeling nauseous from the pain. I will probably be limping later. Not much I can do about all of it, other than feel sorry for myself, which I am doing a really good job of right now. For those reading this, I am fine, I will be ok. Just right now things are just feeling fuxed up, it will pass as well and I will be my usual cheery self.

Also, tomorrow promises to be a non-event for me. I am getting sick and fuxing tired of putting my life on hold while other things, other people, other events have to take place before I can get what I deserve. This is not about wanting. Want is a nebulous thing that means nothing to the universe. What we deserve as a reward for our efforts is a different thing. I wont go into detail much more, but I am feeling tired rite now. I despise the feeling of inertia I have right now. I am going nowhere fast - in any area of my life.