"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

Well, after those unfavorable moments that come and still with me even at this point of time I decided not to rant anymore. But I just can’t keep myself not spilling out those annoyance inside. But come to think about it again, I am just a useless noisy bastard who is actually lamented myself. Being not able to do what I want to do always. Being not able to get what I want to get always. Compare to others surrounds me, I appear like nothing to be proud of, really. Sometimes, my inner self asked for just a slight confidence, promised to stop complaining about problems, work harder and be a better person. Today I said that, tomorrow I forgot and I start everything again, I reminded myself again, I forgot. What’s happening really.

All those oath promises I set for myself, just came and gone. Why is it so hard to do and maintain those promises? Why is it always so easy to make mistake yet hard to not make any mistake? Why is it always easier to do useless things than useful things? Why is it so hard to make myself do the right things?

Anyway, I have always wanted a tattoo. I have decided that I want to get one on my left arm. I want a small one that starts close to the left arm. Initially, I wanted to carve 3 tattoos - a "X" on my left arm, "Y" on the chest and "Z" on the right arm. Sounds silly rite? The only thing left to decide now is the design. This one has got to be original and meaningful to me. I was thinking to carve someone's name.

And next week, I have plenty of activities lining up. Gonna meet up with a good friend from Penang on Monday, I got a pool tournament on Wednesday, on Saturday I gotta attend my company annual dinner and on Sunday I have a primary school ex-classmates gathering.

Day4 - Age of 4.
Mum said, as a 4 year old child, I always get on their nerves. I would always want something or someone to play with and normally I would be playing with my other 2 cousins. The 3 of us were born in the same year and I am the eldest, so most of the time I lead the party. The 3 of us always needed to create a place to go where we could have fun. And under my leadership we always have fun! My imagination, as a child was very strong. Creating a hideaway for us was an easy task, one many years of joy and childhood memories that I still cherish today.

I had a huge collection of toys. You name it, from Voltron, He-Man, guns, Transformer, those mini soldiers miniature, and my all time favorite LEGO. I remember every time when I go shopping with my parents, I'll fuxing come back home with a set of LEGO and my parents will always nag me for buying such an expensive toys. And the next day, I would show off my new set of LEGO to other kids - "lalalalala look at my new LEGO, lalalalalalalalala".

Thing(s) I did on Day 4.
Reflecting Day4 - Age of 4 by "playing in the office". As the matter of fact, I am still in the office now ( 11pm now as I'm writing this particular line ). Yah that's how I "play". It's fuxing Friday nite and I have no where to go and nothing to do. So, being such a sore loser staying back alone in the office complaining about life is the perfect choice.