"Open up and say AAaaaAhhHhh!!!~!~"

Yesterday before I went to sleep, I wished I wouldn't drool off with nitemare again. Fux it came back again last nite, and this time it's even worse. I could strongly feel some shit is gonna happen soon, to me or someone who is fuxing close to me. I got up and could feel my whole body numbed and I could even feel the presence of "something", know what I mean. Something or someone was there, I could feel it. I got back to sleep and the nitemare came back again. Just when I got up again, that "something" or "someone" was there again. It repeated twice. Something is gonna happen but I don't know what it is.

Anyway, decision time again. I've been offered a job in Miami. Yah Miami bitches and beaches! I was so fuxing excited and this job came at the right time. At the time when I needed a change so desperately, I was landed with this offer - perfect! The problem is leaving my family and friends. I've felt something was missing that I needed to do for a long time and even though I've more than most in my life, I feel real antsy and seem to keep constantly looking for something. By going I'm not sure I would lose more than I would gain or if it would make me stronger and be something good. I gotta fly over soon for an interview and if everything goes well, I should be rolling over in about 2 1/2 months from now. Go or no go? The money would put me in an awesome financial position but again, I'm gambling with my life.

Day14 - Age of 14.
High school is all about gangsterism. Those kids feel that if they are called to belong to a group or gang, they will get the recognition they don't find anywhere else. Like anybody else, these children also want to prove that they are good at something. They fight about minor things - maybe there is shoving or staring. And those bloody battle normally involved flying chairs & tables, bricks, bottles, screwdrivers, sticks and anything that they can grab. I don't deem them gangsters. They're more like pricks who are small and are eager to prove their worth. But then again, we all live in fear everyday. Fearing somebody unknown approaches us for money. Fearing that we will get our ass kicked for some unknown reason. So face it, whenever there is light, there is also darkness. And by the way, I go to Sunday school ;)

Thing(s) I did on Day 14.
Reflecting Day14 - Age of 14 by "doing good deeds". I drove up to Cheras to fetch a Singapore friend down to my place. Got him a place to stay and gave him some cash to survive ( not for long though ). He came down empty handed, with not much money in his pocket and he has been sleeping in the cybercafe for almost a week. Now I look like a fuxing saviour. Regardless of all these shits, I feel better after helping him - AT LEAST I did something to help his ass out.